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Yay! I again work, again! However it is extremely part-time (six hours a week) and so I am still looking for a better job. Don’t get me wrong, it’s not bad work, but I need more hours. Basicly, I clean the floors of a local Micheals store. It’s a straight-up labor job and to be brutally honest, I fucking hate it. I’m not the “labor” kind of guy. However it’s work and I’m willing to do it for the nine dollars an hour they are willing to give me.

I am going to try and get a YouTube Watch in the next day or two before the end of the month. I just realized I haven’t done one in some time.

Well, see ya’ later!
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Fuck me. Fuck me! It sucks so much not having any money. It equally sucks not having a job. I mean, I want to work. I want to be productive. I would also love to start my own printing business and work from home.

First thing is first, my anti-virus protection is expiring. Thing is, I have the money to pay for it (just barely) on my Discover Card, which they don’t take! I do have a Visa Card, but I don’t have any money there. So it looks like I will be unprotected again.

Next comes my car insurance bill. I have been behind a month for a couple months and now they want all of it or my ass is grass. However I don’t think my grandmother is going to let me be iced there, so I don’t know.

This is why I am so fucking depressed all the time and question if I be a good mate to DragonGate. I love her, but I hate myself because my life sucks. I mean, I can’t even keep my virus protection current. She’ll be the one taking care of me and I don’t know if I can ask that of her. If she could accept a loser like me, then I would be the luckest man alive.

Until then, I am just a fucking loser who can’t get his life together. Some of it is epic bad luck and some of it is my own damn fault. I just want to work (or start my own business) and have a life with Dragon, is that so wrong? Am I asking too much?

Here I am, can’t write anything of substance except my lousy sob-story. Please play for me the smallest violin on the way out, because no one cares and I don’t blame them.

Well, see ya’ later!
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Ahoy, me hearty! All hope abandon, ye who enter here! Aarrr!

Alright, I can’t do that for long. My friend Moe Lane has some good links if you are looking for a good pirate name. I don’t think I need a pirate name, I would just use BigGator5 anyway.

Well, see ya’ later!
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I give up. I’m more fed up than anything. Ever since I got my computer back, it hasn’t been the same. The most bothersome of these glitches is the fact my RSS Feeds on IE isn’t updating right. I know it has to do with the msfeedssync.exe file and yet I haven’t been able to figure out where the problem is at or even if I can fix it. My head hurts and I’m done hitting it against a wall.

I am still jobless. I also can’t seem to get up on time to get to the labor pool early Tuesday (today is Wednesday) to get a job at the car auction. I am a loser and a failure and I don’t still don’t know what DragonGate sees in me. I know I shouldn’t say things like these, but I just wish there was something I could offer her except my love for her.

On that note, I have taken my short story “Spoils of War” and I am starting to expand on it. Even though I think that story is one of my best works, but I read it now and cringe. I know I can do better, so that is my intent.

Well, see ya’ later!
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And with those magic words I live again! Well, my computer lives. Working again. Whatever.

I have kept myself busy (sort of) and talked to Dragon often enough on the phone while my computer was down. I have enjoyed it a lot and hope to keep talking to her every so often from now on. Other than that, nothing much to report on.

It turns out it was the motherboard and not viruses. Lucky enough for me, the people at CD-Plus were able to figure out that my computer is still under warranty. When I get enough money, I am going to go out and buy those guys a drink. This time however, we can forgo the poisoned dragon’s liver…

Well, see ya’ later!
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