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I have had enough!! I’m done getting pushed around all day long! I am also sick of people not giving a fuck about me! I give and give, and I ask for so little in return! Well today that ends!

I am getting pushed around on two fronts: At work, they work me 1st, 2nd, and fucking 3rd without ever asking what days I would like off or even giving me five days to make my insomnia fucking worth it. On top of everything, my bosses changed my schedule on me when I was walking out the god-damn fucking door (this was two days ago). On top of that, they bloody schedule me tonight of all nights. Then yesterday, just as I was falling asleep, my boss calls me and asks me what day my birthday falls on. Does she ask me if she woke me? Then I come home to the hell hole, a place I don’t want to live at anymore! However I am forced to live here, because my grandmother will not allow me to save any money to get the fuck out of here! I don’t frankly think it’s fair that I am forced to support a house I didn’t want to be in, a drunk and lazy cousin, a drug-up Aunt who can’t see past her own nose, a disrespectful and out of control child, and a woman who doesn’t see me as nothing more than a paycheck.

I want to be in New Mexico, with the woman I love. Does anyone care about that? Does anyone not understand that I am not a punching bag and I can only take so much?

I am always shock when people act so surprised when I finally get pissed off when they treat me so badly for a couple of months. I don’t know what I’m going to do now, but I’m sure as hell am not going to take it anymore.

Well, see ya’ later!
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I have a problem. You see, I want out of here (where I currently live) and I don’t have the money to get out of here. Oh I might be able to do it now, if I am willing to starve myself and I moved locally. In fact I want to move to New Mexico and be near DragonGate.

I currently live in an asylum for the mentally unfit. My Grandmother who can’t say no to my batshit crazy cousin. Of course, my alcoholic-abusing cousin who is a complete asshole when he can’t put down a beer bottle. My Aunt who is always in bed with some illness. My nephew Blake, who is getting nastier, more disreputable, and incredibly rude with each passing day (on a side note, I am treated with more contempt when I speak out against Blake’s disrespect than he is when he tells my Grandmother to “shut-up”). Now when I asked my Grandmother that I can keep all the money I make so I can move, she tells me no. This makes it virtually impossible to save any money. I can do it, but it will take me an extra year and I don’t want to wait until 2010 to get out of here.

My Grandmother says that she has to make house payments and without me, she can’t. Well frankly, I don’t really fucking care anymore. It was no secret that I was against moving to this house in the first place. Don’t get me wrong, I feel bad, but I shouldn’t be paying forever and a day for her god-damn mistake. She tells me that I am not going to be living for free elsewhere and she’s right, but that is why I need the money to get the fuck out of here!

Up until this point, I have been happy to just get by. Now that I have visited DragonGate, that doesn’t seem like enough anymore. I love her, I love her more than I have love any girl in my life. You see, I want to save the money so I can find a hotel room for a couple of months while me and DragonGate get to know each other better and for me to find a job up there.

So the unforgiving universe wins again. I’m stuck in a living hell and I don’t see a way out. Such is my fate.

Well, see ya’ later!
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Ok first off I want to say that I am feeling much better. Thankfully even the Uncommon Cold only lasts a few days. I’m also starting to terribly miss DragonGate already. July can’t come soon enough for me.

So I get home after work, nothing special happen at the hotel, and I find I have a letter from my county’s clerk of circuit court. It would seem that I have been summon to jury duty!

Now some people might suggest that I try and get out of Jury Duty. I disagree. I would love to sit on a jury, just for the educational and learning experience. It’s not everyday that you are summon to serve your civic duty.

Well, see ya’ later!
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I can’t believe how sick I am right now. Coughing and head stuff up, no matter how much allergy meds I take. I haven’t been this sick in years. I have it, the so-called Uncommon Cold. Must have more soup!

I also can’t believe I forgot that today is the 67th year since Peal Harbor. I always try to honor those who died in that horrible attack and I feel bad that I had forgotten.

Well, see ya’ later!
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Where to begin? I guess the beginning is a good idea…

December 1st: I didn’t sleep at all the night before. I was nervous. Not only was I going to meet DragonGate, but I haven’t flown in over nine years. This was of course, long before 9/11 and I didn’t know what to expect getting on a plane. Thinking it would be better to be early than late, I got to Orlando International hours before my flight. The flight to El Paso was long, but I couldn’t sleep because I was so excited about the sights I was seeing outside the window of the plane. I got there and got a nice hotel in Alamogordo (only suggest going to that hotel while in Alamogordo, come visit my hotel while in Orlando). Through a series of missteps, I wasn’t able to meet up with DragonGate. This was due to me not understanding the area and not knowing were to go.

December 2nd: With the layout of the area now in mind, I was able to meet up with DragonGate at last! Before I meet her, I visited the missle museum there on base. After taking a ton of pictures, I got a call from Dragon and headed out to meet her. After a couple of hugs and introduction, she got me a pass so I can drive around on base. Then we went for lunch and just chatted it up until she had to go back to work. From there I went to the White Sands National Monument and again, I took a lot of pictures. In fact, I hope to post a video of the experience. Later for dinner, we went for Pizza Hut pizza because Dragon said she hadn’t had pizza in some time. I will never forget it, we had a medium half-pepperoni and half-sausage pizza with a bottle of Mountain Dew to drink.

December 3rd: This time we just meet for dinner. Meeting her at her place, we had Subway and they were out of bread. They only had wrap bread. After eating, we walked to her apartment where we watched Iron Man and Apocalypto. As I said, we walked everywhere we went. The base is small enough that everything is in walking distance. DragonGate doesn’t have a car and doesn’t really need one. I also think I needed to start walking myself. We stayed up very late.

December 4th: Again, I went to the White Sands while I waited for dinner. Me and Dragon ate on the base’s bowling ally. We both don’t bowl so as soon as they started bowling, we choose to head out. When we got back to her apartment, we watched The Santa Clause. During the movie, I asked Dragon if she had feelings for me. I knew she was a shy girl, so I told her she didn’t have to answer if she didn’t want to. However she turned to me and said that yes, she has feelings for me as well. Then she lean into me and we held each other for the rest of the movie. It was magical and was the highlight of the trip for me. When the movie was over, not wanting to ruin the moment, I left and told her I’d call before I headed out on the plane.

December 5th: My flight didn’t leave until early evening. I was sad at having to go home, but I had to go home. This trip had both a night take-off and landing, which was amazing. My only regret is that I couldn’t see the landing from the cockpit.

Overall, it was a good trip. I am now completely broke, but well worth it to go see DragonGate and for her to tell me she has feelings for me. We even made plans to see each other again. The next time, she’ll come out over here. In fact I need to call her now!

Well, see ya’ later!
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